I know that we all live in such a hurry that sometimes we don't just slow down and remember the way that things used to be. I remember when my grandmother died in 2007, I got this horrible feeling that things were different now. Things will never be like they used to be. I am sure that we have all felt that at some point.
My grandmother was such a kindred spirit. She could make you you laugh in any situation. That was what she loved to do. She loved practical jokes, and anything that would bring a smile to our faces. The other day Kami fell down and hurt her knee. The first thing I could do once I knew she was ok, was start acting silly. My mom said that everyday she sees grandmama in me through something like that. So I guess I have kind of taken on the role of clown in our family. I am so proud to know that she made such a positive impact on my life!
Grandmama taught me to sing and read music. She was so proud when I started singing frequently in church or at local events. She would come to weddings to hear me sing- even though she hadn't been invited. I laugh about that now! Not only would she come to the wedding uninvited, shortly before the wedding started you could see her sneak up to the front pew and slide her tape player under it. She would press the record button and be on her way back to her seat! I remember being embarrassed about it, but looking back- How precious was it for her to love me that much! I guess she was my #1 fan. I wish I could see her with that old tape player again!
Here is an example of my grandmothers humor. I was all upset one day wondering why I had to have so many freckles. I was really down about it- I think a boy at school had been picking on me about it. So I told grandmama about it. Her first reaction was, "Do you want me to go over to that school and knock a knot on that little boys noggin?" Of course she was only kidding. The next part is the funny part- I have never shared this with anyone except my closest family members. She told me that there was an old saying about women with freckles. I was thinking, where could she possibly be going with this? She then told me an "ancient proverb" that will stay with me until the day that I die! She said this to me, "she has freckles on her, but she's pretty". Or was it, "she has freckles on her butt, she's pretty". I laughed and laughed. I think that was one of the funniest things she had ever come up with.
Now I notice little freckles on Kitty's face. I know that one day they will be a bother to her as well. Oh how wish grandmama would be here to have that same talk with her about them. Since she is not I know that one day I will share that old proverb with her. I hope it tickles her as much as it did me!
I thank God for all of the sweet memories I have of the way that things used to be. Those things shaped who I am today. I would love to sit and laugh with grandmama again, but I know that I cannot. Since I can't, I hold tight to all of these memories that I keep in my heart! Every once in a while I find myself sitting thinking of times we spent together. Before I even realize it I am smiling as if she was right there beside me. Who knows may be she is!